Day 15

After studying for five years, and then finishing my probationary year as a newly qualified primary school teacher a few months ago, I guess I’m officially now out in the working world? I prayed so long to finally be in this place to kick start my career, and get stuck in. Disappointingly, if you know anything about Scotland’s current Primary Teaching sector, you’ll know that the situation is pretty dire. Long story short; too many qualified teachers, not enough jobs. I’ve been waiting since March, following successful interview progressions, for that phone call or email of a job offer, but it just never seems to come. 

This is the first time ever that I’ve reached the month of August and not known what on earth is happening next. With God’s gracious and guiding hand, I always had the next part of my life journey lined up. This time of waiting has been really challenging, especially all in the midst of losing one of our family members (love you always Ouma🕊). 

It has been confusing. It has tested my patience. It has brought about frustrations and uneasiness. It has made me debate other life and working options that would shape my future. It has fuelled countless thoughts and questions. And throughout all of this, it hasn’t felt like I’ve gotten any closer to knowing what’s happening next. But the one thing I have gotten closer to; Jesus. I feel I’ve always had a close relationship with Him, but even more so recently as I’ve been leaning on Him, trying my best to seek His comfort and direction over my life. 

So, I still don’t have a job, and the waiting continues. But, God Himself is my answered prayer. During this time, God hasn’t stopped showing up for me. He has been my hope. I’ve been able to continue to recognise the presence and power He has in my life. He hasn’t given up on me, even in the times I felt like giving up. God’s Holy Spirit hasn’t left me, even when my spirits were low. He has remained the certain God I know and love, even in the most uncertain circumstances. He is sovereign and steadfast. Rich in love. A Holy fire, but at the same time, a gentle father. Comforter. Breath of heaven. Peace within the chaos. 

What a God to have on my side. 

‘But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.’ Isaiah 40:31

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Cassidy Fourie

Re:Hope Southside

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As you continue to seek/wait on God for answers, lean into Him today — giving thanks for His constant hope bringing presence.